Nothing much to say today, we're throwing the Baby Shower on June 18th. So alot to plan still but  everything will go through.

Try this I think it's kinda cool.

Araya is soo beautiful, she glows and she is almost 7 months pregnant. she is still so active, and yesterday for the first time I felt the baby move. Yay! She's not living with us anymore. Her mom came to her  senses... Her mom doesn't want to keep the baby so if everything goes throught then were going to adopt it. Yay!!!! I think ....

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I'm in school and my cousin(Araya) calls me hysterical, my aunt(Sharon) kicked her out today because Araya insinsts that she keep the baby. She says she can't handle carrying the baby for 9 months and then giving it away like nothing ever happened. Her boyfriend wants nothing to do with it, as soon as he heard he moved to his dads. The wierd thing is I think that my aunt is jealous because for the past year my aunt has used invitro-fertalization without success. My aunt has never had kids (my cousin was from my uncles previous marraige.)  My mom also wants another child but cannot have one because she is diabetic. So my mom offered to take in Araya. I am wondering though, if the baby was in fact her boyfriends because before hand her father raped her. I don't know...it's snowing so I think that their letting us out early. My cousin is probably gonna stay with us. I don't know if this seems out of line but I was gonna sugest to Araya that we take care of the baby at least until she's out of high school and gets a steady job, but I don't know if I should.

 :(

 What's up? That teacher is okay, I guess. I felt like such a retard. Oh well. I have found a new love. It's The Nightmare Before Christmas. Oh well I am sooo tired. I'm always tired. My Great-Uncle died last night at 3 o'clock in the morning. I can't believe it. We're going to sue the company. I don't know I just need a few days. Oh yeah and over my sick "holiday" we found out that my 15 year old cousin is 4 1/2 months pregnant and she didn't know untill she was 4 months pregnant. I don't know. I am confused. Well bye for now I guess.

We got a new teacher at school just thought I would tell you. Well last weekend I was In westampton and my mom was on the cell phone and she was paying attention to the conversation, because my aunt (who just had her baby) was on the other line. My mom took a glance up and saw a red light and looked right back down and kept talking next thing I know a car next to us was beeping. I opened the door because the window was stuck up. He said:  " Are you guys okay?"
Then a little confused I said while shaking my head and thinking about it at the same time   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;   " Ummmmmmm............................................ Yeah and I said it in the ditzy-est voice that I can ever imagine. I looked up and realized that my mom was sitting through a green light. The guy that had asked us if we were ok was now laughing. I remember he was a hot italian who now thought I was a retard. I thought to myself I'll never see him again. Well WRONG! I just went back to school today and I went to my Language Class and my teacher was out because his wife just had a baby I Asked "Where's the sub?" Then I hear "... and all she said was umm yeah..." My ears just tuned out until someone pointed to the guy that had been talking "There he is." OMG...

Hey I haven't been blogging for like ever but I'm back. I was bored and sick but now I'm back (in school) and bloogging. My puppy is now half as big as my dog. We did decide to name her angel. She is grand, she plays and runs, she is sooooo cute. I  love her. I just got over a virus and sinus infection. It was NOT fun. I am  a lot better now. I don't know whether I should say anything about anything right now  but I'm not 100% better. I don't think I should say why because I should be too young to have this problem. Most likely I'll blog about it later. I don't know, Maybe, if I don't think about it I am a lot better. Until then this will have to do.

:-)

Have you just ever wanted to just break down and cry?and then every1 says your young what do you have to be stressed about. I can't belive this. I get told that almost everyday. I'm getting sick of it, I mean teenagers have as much stress, if not more than adults. At least I do. Any one who don't belive me you know what I don't know what to tell you. but I think writing and smokin is a lot better than cutting or doin other drugs. I don't know ......

 8)

Ok, before I told you that I was goin to have a dog shipped to me, well the airport refused to ship it because it was too cold. Soo... we wound up driving all the way to St. Louis which was 14 hours away. We left around 4 PM and got there around 6 AM our time 5 AM there's. Then we were hungry so we looked for a resturaunt we finally found an IHOP. And we finally found one as soon as we got up. We left there and went to a motel and got some sleep. When they met us she was upset.  When she left she was crying, I felt soo selfish for taking the puppy, when my dog is pregnant. The latest news on that is that their is something wrong with the pregnancy, her body is not allowing her tummy to grow, so it's squishing the puppies. :cry:. I don't know what to do. OH WELL. For now, goodbye.

Why does shit always happen to me, this way?

Okay my dog ran away on New Years Eve, we thought it was dead because it didn't come back for two weeks. So, we decided to get another puppyfrom oklahoma while we were waiting for it to come and after all the money went throught some lady finds my dog. Well so now we have my older dog and the new puppy is coming soon. Well then we take her to the vet to make sure that there was nothing wrong we find out that she's pregnant!!!!  So now we have my puppy a dog and her unborn puppies and I don't know whether to abort the puppies or keep them. Can someone help me???

AWWWWW!!!!
does anyone know how to add soud to this?

Celine Dion - My Heart Will Go On (titanic) Lyrics

Every night in my dreams

I see you. I feel you.

That is how I know you go on.

Far across the distance

And spaces between us

You have come to show you go on.

Near, far, wherever you are

I believe that the heart does go on

Once more you open the door

And you're here in my heart

And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time

And last for a lifetime

And never go till we're one

Love was when I loved you

One true time I hold to

In my life we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are

I believe that the heart does go on

Once more you open the door

And you're here in my heart

And my heart will go on and on

There is some love that will not

go away

You're here, there's nothing I fear,

And I know that my heart will go on

We'll stay forever this way

You are safe in my heart

And my heart will go on and on

"Angel"
It's been five months since you went away
You left without a word and nothing to say
When I was the one who gave you my heart and soul
But it wasn't good enough for you, no
So I asked God
God send me an angel
From the heavens above
send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes
And I know it might sound crazy
But after all that I still love you
You wanna come back in my life
But now there is something I have to do
I have to tell the one that I once adored
That they can't have my love no more
Cause my heart can't take no more lies
And my eyes are all out of cries
God send me an angel
From the heavens above
send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes
Now you had me on my knees
Begging God please to send you back to me
I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep
You made me feel like I could not breathe
Now all I wanted to do was to feel your touch
And give you all my love
But you took my love for granted
Want my lovin' now
But you can't have it
God
God send me an angel
From the heavens above
send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes
Oh God, send me (God send me an angel)
An angel (wipe the tears from my eyes) Oh baby
send me an angel from the heavens above
send me an angel (God send me an angel)
From being in love (send me an angel)
Oh God, send me an angel
send me an angel (send me an angel)
Ooohhhh..

BETTE MIDLER LYRICS

"Wind Beneath My Wings"

Ohhhh, oh, oh, oh, ohhh.
It must have been cold there in my shadow,
to never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's your way.
You always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory,
while you were the one with all the strength.
A beautiful face without a name for so long.
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.

Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.

Did you ever know that you're my hero?
You're everything I wish I could be.
I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.

Did I ever tell you you're my hero?
You're everything, everything I wish I could be.
Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

Oh, the wind beneath my wings.
You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings.
Fly, fly, fly away. You let me fly so high.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.

Fly, fly, fly high against the sky,
so high I almost touch the sky.
Thank you, thank you,
thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings.

LINKIN PARK LYRICS

"Nobody’s Listening"

Yo, peep the style and the kids checking for it
The number one question is how could you ignore it
We drop right back in the cut over basement tracks
With raps that got you backing this up like
Rewind that we're just rolling with the rhythm
Rise from the ashes of stylistic division
With these non-stop lyrics of life living
Not to be forgotten but still unforgiven
But in the meantime there are those who wanna talk this and that
So I suppose that it gets to a point where feelings gotta get hurt
And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt

it goes

[Chorus]
(Tried to give you warning but everyone ignores me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody’s listening)
(Call to you so clearly but you don’t want to hear me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody’s listening)

I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
handfull of anger, held in my chest
And everything left’s a waste of time
I hate my rhymes, but hate everyone else’s more
I’m riding on the back of this pressure
Guessing that it’s better I can’t keep myself together
Because all of this stress gave me something to write on
The pain gave me something I could set my sights on
Never forget the blood sweat and tears
The uphill struggle over years the fear and
Trash talking and the people it was to
And the people that started it just like you

[Chorus]
(Tried to give you warning but everyone ignores me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody’s listening)
(Call to you so clearly but you don’t want to hear me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody’s listening)

I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
handfull of anger, held in my chest
Uphill struggle
Blood sweat and tears
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear

Heart full of pain, head full of stress
handfull of anger, held in my chest
Uphill struggle
Blood sweat and tears
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear

Heart full of pain

[Chorus]
(Tried to give you warning but everyone ignores me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody’s listening)
(Call to you so clearly but you don’t want to hear me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody’s listening)

I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
(Nobody’s listening)
handfull of anger, held in my chest
(Nobody’s listening)
Uphill struggle
Blood sweat and tears
(Nobody’s listening)
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear
(Nobody’s listening)

Coming at you from every side

Oh, say can you see, by the dawn's early light,
What so proudly we hailed at the twilight's last gleaming?
Whose broad stripes and bright stars, through the perilous fight,
O'er the ramparts we watched, were so gallantly streaming?
And the rockets' red glare, the bombs bursting in air,
Gave proof through the night that our flag was still there.
O say, does that star-spangled banner yet wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave?

On the shore, dimly seen through the mists of the deep,
Where the foe's haughty host in dread silence reposes,
What is that which the breeze, o'er the towering steep,
As it fitfully blows, now conceals, now discloses?
Now it catches the gleam of the morning's first beam,
In full glory reflected now shines on the stream:
'Tis the star-spangled banner! O long may it wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave.

And where is that band who so vauntingly swore
That the havoc of war and the battle's confusion
A home and a country should leave us no more?
Their blood has wiped out their foul footstep's pollution.
No refuge could save the hireling and slave
From the terror of flight, or the gloom of the grave:
And the star-spangled banner in triumph doth wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave.

Oh! thus be it ever, when freemen shall stand
Between their loved homes and the war's desolation!
Blest with victory and peace, may the heaven-rescued land
Praise the Power that hath made and preserved us a nation.
Then conquer we must, for our cause it is just,
And this be our motto: "In God is our trust."
And the star-spangled banner forever shall wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave!

" FROM THIS MOMENT "

I do swear, that I'll always be there
I'd give anything, and everything,
I will always care....
Thru weakness and strength,
happiness and sorrow,
for better for worse, I will love you,
with every beat of my heart...
From this moment, life has begun,
From this moment, you are the one,
Right beside you, is where I belong,
From this moment on...
From this moment, I have been blessed,
I have a need, for your happiness,
And for your love, I'd give my last breath,
From this moment on...
I give my hand to you, with all my heart,
Can't wait to live life with you, can't wait to start.
You and I will never be apart,
My dreams...came true...because...of you.
From this moment, as long as I live,
I will love you, I promise you this...
There is nothing, I wouldn't give,
From this moment on...
Your the reason I believe in love,
and your the answer to my prayers from up above,
All we need is just the two of us,
My dreams...came true...because...of you.
From this moment, as long as I live,
I will love you, I promise you this,
There is nothing, I wouldn't give,
From this moment....
I will love you, I will love you,
as long as I live...
From this moment on...

- Baby It's Cold Outside Lyrics

I really can't stay - Baby it's cold outside
I've got to go away - Baby it's cold outside
This evening has been - Been hoping that you'd drop in
So very nice - I'll hold your hands, they're just like ice
My mother will start to worry - Beautiful, what's your hurry
My father will be pacing the floor - Listen to the fireplace roar
So really I'd better scurry - Beautiful, please don't hurry
well Maybe just a half a drink more - Put some music on while I pour

The neighbors might think - Baby, it's bad out there
Say, what's in this drink - No cabs to be had out there
I wish I knew how - Your eyes are like starlight now
To break this spell - I'll take your hat, your hair looks swell
I ought to say no, no, no, sir - Mind if I move a little closer
At least I'm gonna say that I tried - What's the sense in hurting my pride
I really can't stay - Baby don't hold out
Ahh, but it's cold outside

C'mon baby

I simply must go - Baby, it's cold outside
The answer is no - Ooh baby, it's cold outside
This welcome has been - I'm lucky that you dropped in
So nice and warm -- Look out the window at that storm
My sister will be suspicious - Man, your lips look so delicious
My brother will be there at the door - Waves upon a tropical shore
My maiden aunt's mind is vicious - Gosh your lips look delicious
Well maybe just a half a drink more - Never such a blizzard before

I've got to go home - Oh, baby, you'll freeze out there
Say, lend me your comb - It's up to your knees out there
You've really been grand - Your eyes are like starlight now
But don't you see - How can you do this thing to me
There's bound to be talk tomorrow - Making my life long sorrow
At least there will be plenty implied - If you caught pneumonia and died
I really can't stay - Get over that old out
Ahh, but it's cold outside

Baby it's cold outside

Brr its cold….
It's cold out there
Cant you stay awhile longer baby
Well…..I really shouldn't...alright

Make it worth your while baby
Ahh, do that again….

Elf Soundtrack Lyrics

- Santa Baby Lyrics

(baboom baboom baboom baboom)
(baboom baboom baboom baboom)

Santa Baby,
Just slip a sable under the tree
For me
Been an awful good girl
Santa Baby, so hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa baby, a '54 convertible too
Light blue
I'll wait up for you, dear
Santa baby, so hurry down the chimney tonight

Think of all the fun I've missed
Think of all the fellas that I haven't kissed
Next year I could be just as good
If you'll check off my Christmas list

Santa Baby, I want a yacht and really thats not
Alot
Been an angel all year
Santa Baby, so hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa honey, one little thing I really need
The deed
To a platinum mine
Santa Baby, so hurry down the chimney tonight

Santa cutie, and fill my stocking with a duplex
And cheques
Sign your 'x' on the line
Santa cutie, and hurry down the chimney tonight

Come and trim my Christmas tree
With some decorations bought at Tif-fa-ny
I really do believe in you
Lets see if you believe in me

Santa Baby, forgot to mention one little thing
A ring
I don't mean on the phone
Santa Baby, so hurry down the chimney tonight
Hurry down the chimney tonight
Hurry...tonight

Hi all god damn it i'm still here! anyway how is every1? i'm fine I just don't know what i should do if i talk to someone in real life bout my problems they'll throw me in a lunny bin and my parents away i don't know some one help b4 i do something stupid

i don't know what to say my life sux
i can't do anything right i might as well kill myself and no one will care

1)Do you feel insecure when you shop?

a)sometimes  &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;    b)never
c)always    ;         & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;   

2)What size clothes are you in?

a)0-14   & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;   b)16-24
c)above 24

3)How tall are you?

a)4'6-5'0  &nbs p;     ;         & nbsp;   b)5'1-6'0
c)above 6

4)Are you always self concious or just when your shopping?

a) always   & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p; b) Only when I'm shopping
c)No I'm not self concious

5)Do you go for fashion trends rather than your own personal bests?

a)Sometimes  &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;  b) only when it looks good on me
c)always    ;         & nbsp;   &n bsp;  d)Never

6)Do you regret the things you buy out of the store?

a)Sometimes  &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;  b) only when it looks bad on me
c)always    ;         & nbsp;   &n bsp;  d)Never

7)Do you feel people are out to get you or help you?

a)always out to get me  b)help me
c)sometimes, it really depends

8)Do you look at the glass as half full or half empty

A)half full   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;  b)half full
c)what a stupid question

9)In your eyes and no one else's are you fat?

a)yes   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;     b)no
c) what the fuck are you talking fat I'm fucking shamoo

10) Do you feel you are socially declined?

a) I'm a hermit   & nbsp;   b)no
c)somewhat but not really

tmail me the results so i can get your point score and advice

I feel so alone I am the only one in my class wearing a costume god damn it I want to sleep OMG my dad is being a big dick for halloween literally umm and my mom is being lips. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwww wwwwwwww I'm a dark vampress i should have been a fairy fucking princess

LOL

HELP!!!!!!!!

^{I need a hairstyle for homecomming!!!!!! OMG! I D/K what I'm gonna do. HELP!!!!!!}

^{ahh my dress in a betsy and adam bridesmade dress it's}

Betsy & Adam Embroidered Satin Gown if you can/ want to go to

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!

 I just got another bird so now i have cleo pumpkin and sky. when my parents get all the birds that they want our house will be overrun by birds my dad wants to set up an outdoor aviary. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

 UMMMMMMMMM

:wink:

 But I seriously want comments ont his dress send me anything you want i don't care how mean I need the gods honest truth

I am so bored what else is new? ummm I get to bring one of my birds home next week and the other one in a month. And I need a prozac or something how come around the holiday dances I get depressed, oh yeah, that's right, It's because i'm a size 20. duh I look like a fat cow says my mom so sad I think I need a lot moren than prozac now(like a ten gallon tub of ice-cream) I thought kids weren't supposed to be so mean in high school. Ummm has neone seen white chicks the movie? I want to see it i hear it was good. How come when people are depressed about their weight the only thing they run to is food. When that's in fact 99% of the problem If you didn't eat food then you wouldn't be fat and it's not even like it's healthy foods, for example, someone calls you a fat whore bitch who when she gets indressed she can only count to 105 and can only count that high on account of the rolls.  what arer you gonna reach for? The fucking celery sticks or are you gonna reach for that cheesecake?! come on you know your gonna reach for that cheesecake. email me back all you big n plump people like me because all those fucking skinny people are annoying you, amail me back all you skinny people beacause this letters or those other fuckingk fat people are annoying you.!!!!!!!!

J/K

WTF??!!??

 I am so fucking angry right now i just want to wring somebody's neck.Ok I need comments on this one or I don't know what else I'm gonna do.

My brother(steven) and his friend(Timmy) were walking home from school and I was late walking home so I walked up to their school so I could surprise him I saw him and his friend walking home so I stopped, and waited for them to get to where I am. I watched Timmy stomp all over some woman's flowers and heard my brother say something about "I'm gonna tell your dad." Timmy got mad and he started chucking trash cans in steven's way. Steven started running and so did Timmy. Timmy ran faster and got home quicker. Steven went to hit timmy, and I told him no and I told him to go tell carlos, timmy's dad and so he did as timmy was begging him not to so he wouldn't get in trouble. My brother started to tell his story and then when he finished they started yelling at him to say it again.  Steven said that he couldn't talk to them and he walked out. the next thing I here my brother say  is ow ow let go of me, as carlos is screaming at him you better apologise to my wife. Then carlos storms out the door after my brother ( who is on the last step) grabs the handle on his backpack and pulls steven down and makes him fall backwards and hit his head on the step. He drug steven into his house and wouldn't let go until the door was shut. After that whatever Carlos had said got him so upset that he tried to run away I tried to restrain him and get him in the house I finally got into the house and called my mom and told her what happened ...

Carlos had already called my dad and apologized for his actions but is it just me or does sorry just not seem like enough in this case?

Then I was walking to school with his daughter and somehow she made it out to be my brothers fault and i blew up and yelled at her and I called her family lowlifed  and now she said a whole shit load of other things so now before the end of today comment or tmail me pleaz cuz right now i'm pissed and I am not going to be responcible for my actions. and i can't avoid them i already tried but their my next door neighbors.

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